Duniya Mein akhri Din

दुनिया में आखरी दिन आप कैसे जीना चाहेंगे ?
एक बहुत ही अजीब सवाल, भला यह भी कोई बात हुई की हम अपना आखरी  दिन कैसे जीना चाहेंगे।

अच्छा यह बताइए की वह  कौन सी ख्वाहिश है जिसे आप आज पूरा करना चाहेंगे?
एक और अजीब सवाल।।

हजारों ऐसी  ख्वाहिशें हैं जिन्हें नजाने कब से  दिल में दबा रखा है,भला उनका एक दिन में पूरा करना मुमकिन भी  है।

''दुनिया बस ख़त्म होने को थी,और official announcment भी हो चूका था,जिन्हें इस बात पर यकीन न था वह रोज की तरह अपने-अपने काम काज में लगे थे, पर जो यह मानते थे की आज सचमुच कुछ ऐसा होने वाला है वह  ऊपर वाले की इबादत में लगे थे। चारों तरफ हाहाकार मच हुआ था ''

फिर तभी मैंने मेरे ख़ास दोस्त जीशान को कहीं भागते देखा और मैंने आवाज़ दी "अरे भाई जीशान 
कहाँ भागे जा रहे हो? तो आवाज आई ''वही अपना पुराना काम जिसके बारे में मैं अक्सर बातें किया करता था ''
अरे हाँ याद आया ये "जिया हुसैन" नाम की एक लड़की को अपने प्यार का इजहार करने जा रहा है। 
और करे भी क्यों न बेचारे ने 10 साल इन्तेजार किये हैं और फिर आज ये दिन देखने को मिल रहा है ।

अभी मैं  थोडा आगे बढ़ा  ही था की कुछ लड़के मुझसे टकड़ा गए ध्यान से देखने पर पता चला 
की यह वही  लड़के हैं जिन्होंने हाल ही में दिल्ली के एक लड़की का सामूहिक बलात्कार किया था।
पूछने पे पता चला की वह अपने पापों का प्रायश्चित्त करने जा रहे हैं,

पर क्या ऊपर वाला उन्हें इस आखरी घड़ी  में माफ़ कर देता ? 

और  वहीं दूर एक पहाड़ पर शैतान खड़ा इस मंजर का लुत्फ़ उत्ता रहा था ''देखा मैंने ऊपर वाले के बनाये इंसान को क्या से क्या बना दिया ''

शैतान में फरिश्तों से हँसते हुए कहा। उसके चेहरे पर जीत की खुसी खुशी थी ''देखो इस भीड़ को देखो इस में अच्छे इंसान कम और गुनेहगार ज्यादा हैं '' शैतान जैसे अपनी जीत को जाहिर करते हुए फिर बोल पड़ा।

और फिर एक जोरदार आवाज़ वातावरण में गुंजी  और दुनिया का अंत हो गया। 

सोनी टेलीविज़न पर आज 'लास्ट दे ओन अर्थ' नाम का ये रोमांचक  एपिसोड खत्म हो गया 
मैंने टीवी ऑफ़ कर दी पर अब तक इसी  सोच में पड़ा था की "अगर यह सब सचमुच यहाँ हो रहा होता?
तो मैं अपनी कौनसी आखरी ख्वाहिश पूरा करता।   

-Death was Never an option But success was-

Death was never an option for him but success was,yes he was charming a dude

He also have dreams and a abillity to make out something better for the rude future,

He devoted everything for a bright a carrier,he was 7 when he leaved home and found his new home in the hostel “Tauheed Academy” located in kishanganj,bihar.just only for having quality type studies I remebered him when he was in class 5^th and I was in 2^nd,as though my experience’s of living with the seniors Was somehow altered that time so beacause he was senior.

.

But like all seniors he doesn’t bully us or specially me b’coz I was the most emotional boy of that hostel,yes I am talking about ezaz alam or ezaz bhai.

Jee haan main baat kar raha hun ejaz bhai ya fir cadet ejaz alam ka jo aaj hamare bich nahin hai ya na hokar bhi hai.mujhe yaad hai who din jab unki maa unhein hostel mein chhorkar jaati thi to itna roti  ki who apne bete ko chhorkar jaa nahin paati, magar haalaat se samjhauta karke jaana to padta hi tha,magar aaj yeh kaise haalaat hain ki jinse samjhauta karna kaafi mushkil hai ya fir naamumkin hai.

Jee haan main baat kar raha hun uss ejaz alam ki jo sapnon ko pura karne ke liye kisi bhi had tak jaa sakta tha aur shayad gaya bhi tha.kamyabi ke itne najdik aakar use kya mila ek aisi maut jo shayad kisi ko naa mile,

Who’s photo is given above was a boy just like us, charming, happy & satisfied he never complained to god for his present condition.after doing 12^th from delhi he joined the liverpool academy for the training of merchant navy.His father is a farmer and had hardly managed to pay his fee’s,after 1 year training his placement was successfull in starmarine pvt ltd. then He return back to katihar his hometown for some passport assistance from the passport office,because his passport was not ready.

Par unhein kya pata tha ki agar who iss baar aayega to phir kabhi wapas nahin jaa paayega,ab tak toh who apni safalta ko door khade jhaanka karte the par jab paas aakar use haasil karne ka mauka mila to phir achanak ye kya,apne gaon se thodi door main road pakadte waqt ek Tractor ne use uske bike ke saath kuchal diya aur saath mein kuchal diye kai saare sapne jo atut the.woh turning pont the jiske wajah se yeh accident hua jaisa ki log kehte hain main bhi kehta hun ki who ek turning point tha shayad unki jindagi ka sabse bada turning point.

Log kehte hain ki upar waale ko yahi manjur tha magar main kehta hun ki agar upar waale ko yahi manjur kyon tha phir itna drama kyon,kyon dikhaye use aise sapne jo waqt be waqt chhin hi lena tha,aur phir uss maa ka kya jo dur apne gaon mein baithi ye sochti thi ki uska beta use ek din apne jahaj par bithakar saari duniya ki sair karayega.

Aur kya hoga us baap ka jise dard toh hai par ro nahin paa raha,jiske baajuon mein taaqat to hai par apne bete ka arthi nahin uttha paa raha.aisi kya majboori hai unki ya fir aisa kya hai iss duniya mein ya fir upar waale ko yahi manjoor kyon tha kuch aur kyon nahin.

Sawaal bahut saare hain magar jawaab utne hi kam.unhone kamyabi sochi thi maut to nahin par unke sochne se kya hoga hota toh wohi hai jo manjoor-e-khuda hota hai.

-I Said Stop & She Smiled-

I said stop and she smiled to me,

without giving any reply she moved 

ahead.

and suddenly vanished in the dense 

fog.

yes i am talking to 2011,the last 

moment i talked to her and tried to 

take some more of her time but she

was in so hurry.

really i never talked to so seriously.

I was hiding under my quill pressing the pillow under my head

Then suddenly I remembered oh! Today is the last day of this year.

Ya its 11:13 PM only 47 minutes left to this year.

Kamaal hai aisa kaise ho sakta hai,ye toh kuch dinon pehle ki baat hai jab  2010 ki  akhri


raat ko main  kuch likh raha tha,haan shayad naye saal par hi kuch.

Aur who diary bhi hai mere paas yes I got it.

Here it is lying behind my chemistry book,

it’s totally bull-shit how can I be so lazy I


haven’t completed my previous years


welcome note.

And the new year  came again.

How can time be so fast?

Yes it can be ! why not ?

I am lazy and I know time and tide wait for none.

                                                            
our teacher taught us “be not afraid of growing slowly,just afraid of standing still”

Boom! The first cracker blast and the new year arrived, the boys living on 4^th floor


upstairs my room started their new year party with a full DJ blast.

Log khush ho jaate hain jab naya saal aata hai ,magar main ! hamesha ki tarah confused


thoda udas aur thoda gamgin ya responsible.afterall 2011 passed away but marked some


page’s for itself in the book of History.

Saal ke ant hone tak kaafi saare badlao aa gaye “revolution in egypt,syria as well as India”


anna jee ka muhim aur india ka census kaabil-e-taarif tha.

Main chahkar bhi khush nahin ho pata,mujhe pata nahin kyon,aur yeh koi bimari nahin 


yeh bas ho jaata hai.

log party karte hain,mauj karte hain,shayad isliye ki who meri tarah bewakuf nahin ya fir 


woh apna keemti waqt sirf yeh sochne mein nahin  bitana chahte hain ki hum kitne dheemi


raftaar se chal rahe hain muqable waqt ke.

No they aren’t stupid,they chill and have fun and let the tention go far-far away from


them.

Tention? Offf! Yeh tention! Jab bhi jaata hai toh kamaal ki khusie deta hai,

Aur kuch log toh itna chill kar rahe hain ki shayad woh aaj 2012 ki subah dekh hi na


paayein.

Haan main un logon ki baat kar raha hun jo gandhi maidan chaurahe par,foot-path’s par


thodi aag jalaakar iss ummid par lete hain ki kisi tarah unhein neend  aa jaye,taaki kal


subah who jaagkar  iss tthand se bachne ke liye kuch bandobast kar paayein.

Kya yeh naye saal ki raat unke liye utni khushiyon bhara hai jitna ki un logon ke liye jo


sharab aur sangit ke nashe mein dube hain.

Aur kya who log khush hain jo aaj ki raat naach-gaa rahe hain,oh haan unke activities se


toh kuch aisa hi jaahir ho raha hai.

Are yeh kya who dekho kuch log haath mein kuch samaan liye gandhi maidan ki taraf aa


rahe hain aur unke haath mein kuch hai,are ye toh jaare mein odhne waale kambal hain,

Haan yaad aaya yeh to “jaagran art of living” waale hain jo kai dinon se garibon mein


kambal baant rahe hain,

unko maidan mein ghushta dekhk woh chota sa 6 saal ka ladka bhaagte hue unke paas


pahuncha shayad who samajh gaya tha ki yeh log kambal hi baantne aaye hain,aur sabse


pehli kambal use mil gayi.

Uske baad dusri ek budhe ko aur teesri ek aurat ko aur yeh silsila chalta raha.

Kitna khush hai who uss kambal ko paakar,utna hi jitna main bachpan mein chocolates


paakar hua karta tha.

Shayd Nahin uski muskan ki  drirhta aur sukun ko dekhkar meri muskan kuch fiki pad

rahi hai, bhale hi uske chehere  par maans  na ho magar uski muskuruhahat mujhe saaf-


saaf bata rahi hai ki who andar se kitna khush hai.

Aaj ki raat shayad thodi sukoon se kategi aur shayad kal ki bhi,yehi sochte hue who maile


kuchele mein lipta hua ladka khush ho raha tha.

Use nahin pata tha ki yeh naya-asaal kya hai,aur kyon fut rahe hain rang birange patakhe


kuch fulon ke guldaste jaise aur kuch aasman mein rang-birange taare bikherte hue, who


bas dur patakhon se utthti hui roshni ko dekhte hue agey ki taraf badhta hi jaa raha tha


badhta hi jaa raha tha . 

Khair jo bhi ho yeh saal to gujar gaya magar de gaya anginat tazurbe,yaadein aur thodi 

bahut 

bimariyan bhi.

Aur saath mein gujar gaye kai bade hasti jaise ki jagjit shahab,evergreen star dev anand aur


saath mein steve jobs.

Ye steve shahab bhi kamaal ke aadmi hain chale toh gaye magar apni apple chhor gaye


aur us apple kuch aur tukde jaise ki i-pod,i-phone.

Maine unse kaha ki sir apne samaan to le jaiye! Magar kamaal ki baat hai yeh ki unhon ne


bhi wohi rawaiya apnaya ek halki si muskan aur fir chal pade.

                                                                                                                                     
                                                                                  
                                                                                      -Hasan reza-

Capital Express

कैपिटल एक्सप्रेस कटिहार जंक्शन  पार कर चुकी है,
और अल्फाज हैं के छूटने को बेताब हो रहें हैं। 

'एक सर्द रात के बाद कुछ अल्साइ सी धुप करवट बदल रही है
और सैकड़ों ज़िंदा कहानियों  लेकर ट्रेन वैसे ही रुक-रुक कर चल रही है।

कुछ बच्चों का झुण्ड मेरे पास की सीट पर बैठ मुस्कुरा रहे हैं,
और कुछ अपने नए गर्म कपड़ों पे इतरा रहें हैं,

कोई कर रहा है अपने नन्हे हाथों से अपनी टोपी उतारने की कोशिश
तो कोई एक एक दूसरे को फुसला रहे हैं। 

चाय-चाय की वह जानी पहचानी आवाज जब सभी को उनके नींदों से जगाने लगी,
स्टेशन का नाम देखने मेरी भी आँखें खिड़की से बाहर झाँकने लगी। 

ट्रैन का यह लम्बा सा सफर स्टेशन के उस चहल-पहल में छुपने लगा
आने ही वाली थी मंजिल भी मेरी ट्रैन का सायरन यह जोर-जोर से कहने लगा।

फ़िर नज़र पड़ी अगले केबिन में बैठी गुमसुम उदास सी  लड़की पर
बार-बार जो कर रही थी घडी पर अपने नजर

शायद कोई है जो बैठा है उसके इन्तेजार में
प्लेटफार्म की सीट पर या स्टेशन की कतार में

पर सुइयां देखने का अब भी कोई फायदा नहीं
जैसे सर्दी में गाडी और समय का कोई वायदा नहीं

 अब ट्रैन धीरे से अपने पहिये थाम रही है
और देखो वह लड़की भी अब थोड़ा मुस्कुरा रही है।

बस कुछ इस तरहा से कैपिटल एक्सप्रेस हर बार मुझे घर ले आती है
शबनम के बूंद से ये मीठे एहसास चुपके से दे जाती है। 

                                                                               हसन रेज़ा

The Real Hero

In 1993, Assange was involved in starting one of the first public internet service providers in Australia, Suburbia Public Access Network.^[ Starting in 1994, he lived in Melbourne as a programmer and a developer of free software. In 1995, he wrote Strobe, the first free and open source port scanner. He contributed several patches to the PostgreSQL project in 1996.

 He helped to write the book Underground: Tales of Hacking, Madness and Obsession on the Electronic Frontier (1997), which credits him as a researcher and reports his history with International Subversives.

 Starting around 1997, he co-invented the Rubberhose deniable encryption system, a cryptographic concept made into a software package for Linux designed to provide plausible deniability against rubber-hose cryptanalysis;^[42] he originally intended the system to be used "as a tool for human rights workers who needed to protect sensitive data in the field."^[43] Other free software that he has authored or co-authored includes the Usenet caching software NNTPCache^[44] and Surfraw, a command-line interface for web-based search engines. In 1999, he registered the domain leaks.org; "But", he says, "then I didn't do anything with it."

From 2003 to 2006, Assange attended the University of Melbourne, mainly studying physics and mathematics and briefly studying philosophy and neuroscience. In most of his maths courses, he received the minimum "pass" grade. He did not graduate; the fact that his fellow students were doing research for Pentagon's DARPA was reportedly a factor in motivating him to drop out and start WikiLeaks.

WikiLeaks was founded in 2006. That year, Assange wrote two essays setting out the philosophy behind WikiLeaks: "To radically shift regime behavior we must think clearly and boldly for if we have learned anything, it is that regimes do not want to be changed. We must think beyond those who have gone before us and discover technological changes that embolden us with ways to act in which our forebears could not." In his blog he wrote, "the more secretive or unjust an organisation is, the more leaks induce fear and paranoia in its leadership and planning coterie.... Since unjust systems, by their nature, induce opponents, and in many places barely have the upper hand, mass leaking leaves them exquisitely vulnerable to those who seek to replace them with more open forms of governance."

Assange is a prominent media spokesman on WikiLeaks' behalf. While newspapers have described him as a "director"^[ or "founder" of Wikileaks, Assange has said, "I don't call myself a founder";^[ he does describe himself as the editor in chief of WikiLeaks, and has stated that he has the final decision in the process of vetting documents submitted to the site. Assange says that Wikileaks has released more classified documents than the rest of the world press combined: "That's not something I say as a way of saying how successful we are – rather, that shows you the parlous state of the rest of the media. How is it that a team of five people has managed to release to the public more suppressed information, at that level, than the rest of the world press combined? It's disgraceful."^.

 He advocates a "transparent" and "scientific" approach to journalism, saying that "you can't publish a paper on physics without the full experimental data and results; that should be the standard in journalism."^[ In 2006, CounterPunch called him "Australia's most infamous former computer hacker."^[.The Age has called him "one of the most intriguing people in the world" and "internet's freedom fighter." Assange has called himself "extremely cynical". He has been described as being largely self-taught and widely read on science and mathematics, and as thriving on intellectual battle.

Assange received the 2009 Media award from Amnesty International for Kenya: The Cry of Blood – Extra Judicial Killings and Disappearances, and he has been recognized as a journalist by the Centre for Investigative Journalism. Assange has been a member of the Australian journalist union, the Media, Entertainment and Arts Alliance, for several years, and in 2011 was made an honorary member.

 Alex Massie wrote an article in The Spectator called "Yes, Julian Assange is a journalist", but acknowledged that "newsman" might be a better description of Assange.Alan Dershowitz said "Without a doubt. He is a journalist, a new kind of journalist".

Assange has said that he has been publishing factual material since age 25, and that it is not necessary to debate whether or not he is a journalist. He has stated that his role is "primarily that of a publisher and editor-in-chief who organises and directs other journalists". 

The Lost Ball

What is the boy now,

Who has lost his ball,

What,what is he to do?

I saw it go.

Meririlly bouncing,and then

Merrily over –

There it is in the water !

No use to say “o there are other balls”

An ultimate shaking grief fixes the boy,

As he stands rigid, trembling, staring down.

All his young day’s into the the harbour

Where his ball went!

I wouldn’t intrude him.

A dime another ball is worthless.now he senses first

Responsibility in a world of possessions .

“people will take balls,balls will be lost always’s little boy.

And no one buy’s a ball back.money is external.

A poem I have readen in my school day’s in my English text book,

It describes a story of a boy who has lost his ball but he is learning well behind,

His desperate eyes,

The epistemology of loss,how to
stand up

Knowing what every man must be one day now,

And most know many days,

How to stand up and cope up with the truth.

snow of peace

The way a crow shook Down on me,

The dust of snow from a Hemlock tree

Has given me a change of mood

And saved apart

of my Day being rued..

A hemlock tree and crow which is being hated by people,

And the crow which called the bird of bad-luck has given me

Today somehow peace.

Angel

Oh! Dark Angel come on....let me see you...!

 There are many thing’s I wanna ask you

Plese stay for a amoment.

Think, In mounting higher,

The angels would press on us, and aspire

To drop some golden orb of perfect song....!

Into my deep, dear silence."

A special world for you and meA special bond one cannot see

It wraps us up in its cocoon

And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold

Gently nestling us to the fold

Like silken thread it holds us fast

Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break

A new one forms in its wake

To bind us closer and keep us strong

In a special world, where we belong.

Drops of life

The previous year was the most fully experienced year of my life.

The whole year elapsed in wandering here and there in search of peace .

Th three inch smoking stick generally stuck with me wherever go.

That was the time I mostly want to forgot oriental public school.

I lived in rizwans house 3 months if I will stayed 1weeks more than certainly I was vanished because mr adnan was growing as a brain tumer for me

But the last 4 months has changed my mood and saved saved apart of my year of being rued. 

Journey begins in march

Lived in forbesganj for giving the board exams .we satyed at roshan lodge,alamtola

Many new fellows came to meet there mostly shadab anjum from kota rajashthan prepearing for engeniering entrances he was just like me some time I start to find myself in him.

He was also a die hard fan Hollywood movies and the internet

He is specially ther for 12^th board exams both exams were going to held together in sarswati vidya mandir

  

"रोशन था आफताब भी हलकी सी धुप रूस का शरमाया सा लगता था!

वोह रातों में महताब चमका और वह गुनगुनाती  चांदन,

मिल बैठे साथ तो नूर बरस पड़ती होती आसमा से फर्श तक नूर की छड़ी !

Kabir,faizan and shahjahan were also with us.

we had enjoyed much more instead of prepearing for exams, lots of discussions were to made there whole  the day afterall I have got a partner for sharing my hollywood gossips

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मुझे  नहीं  पता  था  यह  खुसी  जो  मुझे  मिल  रही  है  यह  मेरे  हिस्से  की  है  या किसी और के खुसी में शरिक्दार हूँ....या फिर है यह एक महज इत्तेफाक !

Kaisi manjil thi kaisa mikam tha

Dojakh si duniyan mein jannat sa shaan tha

Subah wahan ki badi sharmili hoti halki si dhup raus ka sharmsaya sa lagta tha aur fir who sust दोपहर का मजा 

pehle din ka exam najdik aa chukka tha

9 पम tak hum sab nikal pade exam hall ki taraf

It feels just like that I am going to attend someones funeral as though we arrived at the exam hall by seing the scenery ofthat place it seems like the judgement day as I heard from my mother that in that day no one will help  anyone more ………

After three exams there was a long break, kabir and me ran towards katihar for some enjoyment…….

Traveling in trains without tickets ,fighting with the T.T.E all of my first experience of that type……

Everything was happening except studies I know that

Puara saal bina kuch padhe ab padhkar kya faayda hone wala tha ….

din gujarte gaye tajurbaat apni jagah lete gaye…….

Hawaon ne fir se apna rukh badla , 

ab waqt ho chala tha jaane ka  shadab bhaiya 27^th ko chale gaye unko vida karke achcha to nahin lag raha tha par kya karein sabkuch hamesha ke liye thode hi kayam rehne wala hai………

Faizan 31^st march ko chala gaya sabkuch fir se waisa ka waisa ho gaya

Magar mujhe afsos nahin kyon in chand lamhon ko maine jee liya pee liya iss aabe rawan ka paani ……….

Ab asim sirf bhai hain wahan pe kehte hain hamare bina who jagah kaatne ko daurta hai….

Dedicated to:- forbesganj,Bihar

Duration:- 2 months